Is it living

I've been told that it is not normal to have lived as much as I have at my age.   People tell me this, like I am meant to stay still.

...as if bad things don't usually happen to people...

...as if I'm the only one these things have happened to...

I've been told it's not normal to have

"lived"

as much as I have.

Some look at me as if I'm 26 going on 60

some watch me like I have some sort of disease they're trying to study.

...this is why I don't tell you...

...because my past was once my present...

...and it tried to defeat me then...

...if I made 'then's' 'now' as often as my brain tried to I'd have no will left...

...and tomorrows coming whether I'm ready or not...